I was undeniably mad mistake

I made a mistake. I made the biggest mistake in the world that you can't even imagine. I am about to cry right now i must say. I was so drunk, and obsess until I don't know what I'm doing. I just can imagine my life without you, everything will be perfect and wonderful. Ill be bliss. I know when someone is growing up, they should be surrounded with good people or otherwise, everything will turn bad. Like me. I never felt the genuine love from my friends because of you. even now. I hope everything will change, because so far I love them do death. I can now imagine my life without you and without my friends. It is completely different. Completely. And now, I don't mind if someone hates me because of my fucking fault. I just don't mind because I admit it. I made mistakes

lust is issue.